was surfing around and decided to go take a look at the SAJC webby.. and they have this section of the site where they put up photos of events happening around the school whole year round. to my horror.. they've now only have photos starting from 2003. what? is the batch of 2002 that ancient? that u have to erase our pictorial memories?
and now looking at the new batch of orientation photos. haha. so damn fun. aint no where we're ever gonna go back to this kind of times. where one can totally heck everything else. and play to have fun. with friends who also wanna jus have fun. that u know laugh with you. the chore of changing classrooms in college every other hour was a major chore... but it would seem like a bliss to me now. to actually have that much company. to have familiar faces you know u can talk cock with at every turn of the corner...stress of schoolwork is nothing compared to school at work. trust me. so those still studying now. i urge u guys to really cherish the times.
now i really realise tat i'm a treasure the moment person. 15 mins to end of work. these are the only kind of times that i look forward. becos as optimistic as i am as a person. i know that my future is really gonna be hard. it's not gonna be honeymoon anymore. no more super fun. no more spending spree. its gonna be saving up and preparing for alot of things. super heavy responsibilities on my shoulders. i've really gotta toughen up to bear the brunt of it all.
sometimes when i look into the future when i'm alone at night. it really really freaks me out. the immensity of everything. the weight of the whole world falling upon me. no qualifications. no money. worst still... this office environment is draining out the drive in me. i really WILL get nightmares if i wanna look into the future. its like this super dark place. don't dare to venture into it.
i think i'm like a woman. i fall into this depression state once a month. or maybe even more often den once a month. think only u guys will know huh.
but i know i'm strong... need to dig out the underlying strength in myself. and i will be able to take on the world agn! waaaahoooooo.......
